Sunday, January 3, 2016

Coming Home



It's cold in here. Must turn up the heat and put the kettle on... and where are my slippers?

This is the aftermath of my little niece's play in the snow. Cute little shark mittens. Sharks with horns. What you can't see are the little white shark teeth just under the surface of the snow. A metaphor for my current life... there is the beginning of an undercurrent... and it has a bite...

It's been 2 years since I was here last. (what??) I didn't think I would ever return... I felt as though I had run out of words, run out of ideas, run out of steam. I'm not even sure if I have found my words yet, but I intuitively knew better than to delete this space, in case a day came when I needed to have a retreat like this again. And here I find myself. This time, the return is more personal. As I learn to navigate through one of the most difficult times of my life, I am searching for ways to stay connected to the beauty around me... to gently remind myself that there is always a bit of light, even when I can't see past my outstretched hands... 

Self care is my sole focus this year. I will put things here when I feel inspired to add to this quiet little corner of the interverse... For me, and perhaps for you, if you are still out there. (Are you still there? I can hear a canyon-like echo in the room. ) ...Maybe often, maybe not. No self-imposed rules, no obligations, no deadlines. Only when I feel compelled, inspired, or in need of an escape from reality. But then again, the pictures I take and the words I put down here are just as real as anything else, aren't they?

9 comments:

  1. I am still here. I will always be here waiting for your beautiful imagery. I'm sorry it's a tough time for you. (((Hugs))) I hope you get everything you need to see you through.

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  2. Hello
    I found your blog after you had finished blogging and read all your back posts. I put you on my blog list in the hope that you would return and here you are - so I am delighted to see this post and look forward to reading more- as and when.

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  3. ditto here. you have been on my list all along. and here you are.

    an online friend (who i recently got to meet in person!) told me that sometimes we're writing, but sometimes we're listening. and in the listening we are still writing stories, stories which will appear when they're meant to appear. he's a no-rules guy, too. the best kind.

    i am so glad you are here still. so glad.

    and i want a pair of those mittens. :)

    xoxoxo

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  4. Jaime! Oh, how I've missed you and your grace-filled, beauty-filled photos. I am coming out of one of the most difficult times of my life. Hard times are hard indeed. I am sorry you are going through one, and if you ever need someone to listen, I am here.

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  5. you can't get rid of me very easily sweet girl…xo

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  6. Like you, I'm a complicated girl. Lovely to find your blog, strangely enough, I didn't find you, one of my dogs did....he patted the keyboard, and there you where. I like what I see here, so shall trust my dog, and fate, and follow you. Happy New Year. May it bring you all that you dream of, if it's good for you.xxx

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  7. I've missed your words and images here. 💗

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  8. How lovely to have you return. I've been checking back regularly and am delighted to see you here.

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  9. I hope you have a happy and inspiring year.

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